~December 2017 – New Jersey’s Snow Report ~

Good Afternoon to All of You from New Jersey Land!!!

I hope that all of you have had a pleasant weekend.  What did you do in your neck of the woods?
As some of you know, we here on the East Coast of the USA were hit with a December to remember unusual snowstorm.  It had stretched as far as Louisiana and the Northern tip of Florida, all the way up to New England.  And, what a beautiful snowfall it was.  
Here are some of the photos from last night, and first thing this morning.  (Some of the evening pics were posted last night, so please forgive me if you have already seen them).

This was taken directly outside the townhouse last night around 10-10:30pm, we had already gotten at least 5 inches by this point.

This pine tree that sits outside my bedroom window was just covered.  It reaches far past the second floor.

Off in the distance, there we a few townhomes with Christmas lights glowing through the fallen snow.  It was breathtaking.
Around 1am-ish, the crews were outside clearing the parking lot and walkways, and thank goodness they added plenty of rock salt to prevent anyone from slipping and breaking their necks.  We had gotten a total of 6 & 1/2 inches of snow last night.  Doesn’t that pine look amazing?
Another photo from my bedroom window first thing this morning…  I so love when the sunlight catches the snow and ice atop the branches.  

Here is a pic of the backyard.

And, this little girl here is “Pinky”, my roommate’s dog.  Whom which, I consider my niece. 

 

By this point, she is looking up at me with her doe eyes, indicating…  “Yo, Aunt Beck!  Enough of the picture taking, my toes are frozen.”  LOL!!!  🙂
So, that is just a glimpse of what New Jersey got yesterday.  The Weather Channel is reporting we might get more of the white stuff again by Wednesday.  –  “I sure hope not.”  I always love the first snowfall of Winter but after that, I’m not impressed anymore.  LOL!!!
So, who else received snow this past weekend?  Please share your photos, and tell me where you are from.  Love to see your neck of the woods!!!
Have a great rest of the day!
Take Care & God Bless!
Beckie

 

 

 

 

~OMG!!! 300 Post & 300+ Followers!!!~

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Good Morning All!!!   I have literally been blown away since I turned on my laptop this morning to see 300 + Followers, after 300 posts.  Heck, I was thrilled on November 20, 2017, when I hit 200.  
I am sincerely humbled and full of gratitude to all of you that have followed me, and/or just started to follow me.  I am so touched, Thank You from the bottom of my heart.
When I first began my bog back in September 2016, I hadn’t had a clue as to what I was doing.  The only thing I wanted to do was share my story about Mental Health Awareness and breaking the stigma that surrounds it.  When I look back at those first entries, I shudder at how my writing was so utterly choppy and how stiff I was back then.  
It wasn’t until this past September 2017, that I started reading “The Perfectly Imperfect Bunch” posts, and my world opened up.  Nitesh, Grabbety, Pradita, and Kelley (just to name a few), enlightened me with writing advice, and many, many suggestions to tweak and improve my writing techniques.  Soon, I was accepted into this fine “Bunch.”
I still take my Mental Health Awareness part of my blog very seriously but opened up and expanded to what I also love to do which is writing poems, prose, and sharing my everyday life with you.
All the people I follow are an inspiration to me as well.   Good Lord, if I were to list all of you…  I think WordPress would turn me off.  The stories you have shared, the courage, strength, positive attitudes, perseverance, and yes, sorrow has made me feel closer to each of you.  It grows harder every day when I am trying to read each entry you submit because I love to hear from you as you share your stories and fine submissions that you write.  I never want to miss a thing.  LOL!!!
Again, I simply can’t thank you all enough for following “my mental mess.”
God Bless You!!!
Beckie
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~ Is This Week Almost Over Yet? ~

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Hello, All My Blogging Buddies!  Happy Friday Eve To Each & Every One of You!! 🙂

This has been a very trying week for me and I sincerely can’t wait for it to end already.  Here’s a quick week in review:
Monday – visit with my therapist, and literally fall to pieces over something that took place nearly three years ago on Christmas.  I hadn’t given it any thought about it since it happened, but “Hey!  Let’s fuck with this woman because everything was fine up until that day.”  I mean seriously?  
Tuesday – Still emotionally spent I hadn’t felt myself all day.  Later that evening, when it started to rain, I end up having a massive anxiety attack.  The damn thing was so bad, that nothing I learned seemed to calm me down.  That was embarrassing to me because here it is…  I’m always posting about mindfulness and meditation etc…  And, I couldn’t even get it together.  I ended up having to take a valium to calm myself down which is something I haven’t needed since my trip down to Florida back in July.
Wednesday – Woke up feeling so worn out and down, that I didn’t even bother to take a shower, and remained in my PJ’s all day long.  My whole body ached from the extreme tension I endured from the night before.  After writing, and reading post for most of the early part of the day, I decided to take a much-needed nap.  Only, to wake up feeling ill, and I mean the kind of ill that keeps you in the bathroom.  I read for a little while longer, then said to hell with it…  I went back to bed.
Thursday – Full intentions of going to my “Peace & Progress aka Anxiety Group”, but was back in the bathroom sick as all sin.  Immediately following that, I was on the phone contacting my doctor’s office for an appointment.  Thank God, they were able to get me in by 1pm.  
I called the group and explained what was happening to me, and the facilitator asked me several questions pertaining to “What brought the anxiety up?”  –  “I don’t know, I’ve been trying to self-analyze this all week.”  
When I went to get ready to visit the doctor, I peeled the sweated up T-shirt and PJ bottoms off of me in order to take a shower.  I must have had a fever to have been soaked.  I took one look in the mirror and saw that I resembled that of road kill.  “Hmmm, I doubt highly any man would want a night on the town with me.”
My roommate “JK” volunteered to take me to the doctors because I couldn’t even stand up straight by the time I made it downstairs.  “God Bless Her!”
I didn’t have to sit in the waiting room for more than 5 minutes when the nurse called me in to see my doctor.  Not many people like their personal practitioner, but I love mine.  He is a very kind man, with a great personality.   He asked what was happening, and of course, I filled him in on the week in review up to the point of sitting on the table.  
Yup!  It was determined what I had already thought I had.  Bronchitis.  “Lovely!  Does this come with a return receipt?”  –  He called in the medication right away and also stated that he wanted me to have blood work done.  – “I wasn’t feeling lousy enough, and now I get to become a human pin cushion.”
So, after all, was done, and the meds were picked up.  I asked if my roommate was up to stop at the diner on our way home. “My treat”, being that she helped me so much today.  We ended up both ordering breakfast at 3pm in the afternoon.  “Oh, heck…  You can have breakfast any time of the day.”
Since we returned home, I did a load of laundry to wash the sheets and my PJ’s.  I’ve been sitting here at my laptop drinking plenty of fluids and reading some amazing posts.  Some of which were so good they were worthy of reblogging.  
I have full intentions of relaxing tonight, and tomorrow to make sure this bronchitis is kicked out of my system.  I hope and pray that I don’t have another episode of anxiety between now and this upcoming Monday when I see my psychiatrist.  But, if I do, at least that appointment was made over a month and a half ago.
I hope that all of you have a pleasant Friday Eve and that you get your rest too.
Take Care & God Bless,
Beckie 
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December 5, 2017: ~ The Calm After The Storm; Does Barometric Pressure Affect Anxiety? ~

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Hello, my dear friends…  How are you today?  I don’t know why, but I always enjoy asking the following question;  How is the weather in your neck of the woods?  I have a point to this question I have asked.  I really I do.  🙂
As some of you know, I had experienced a pretty rotten anxiety attack last night.  I think I was pretty much fighting it from the time I had gotten out of bed yesterday.  The strange thing was, was that I wasn’t thinking or ruminating over anything at all, other than trying to figure out the “Why?” am I feeling this way.  

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Yesterday’s weather was strange here in New Jersey.  For early December, it had reached 60 degrees and it was so humid.  The meteorologist said there would be rain later in the day.  Seems pretty uneventful, right?  Well, what followed soon after it began to rain is when the anxiety took a strong-hold on me.  The tension in my neck and shoulders added to extreme pain in my chest, I felt this crippling sensation.  The more I was trying to figure out what had triggered this event, the more anxious I was becoming.  What the hell was triggering this?
It is very rare for me to break down and take a valium, but I simply broke.  This was after I tried mindfulness and breathing techniques to no avail, but I was overtaken by the grip it had on me.  Once I had taken that little pill, 20 minutes later I was off the ledge.  I read other peoples blogs to keep me focussed and in the present moment which helped a great deal…  So, many thanks to all of you for posting some fine writing.
Afterwards, I laid down to unwind by watching Netflix and wondered to myself, ‘Did the weather play a role in my anxiety attack?’  Seriously?  I knew that seasonal changes could affect depression, right? 

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This morning, after I had awakened I still felt sore from tensing up last night, but I really wanted to answer my own question of; ‘Did the rain affect my anxiety last night? ‘  –  “Okay Google, answer this one for me, please?”
Seasonal changes do affect depression and believe it or not, the barometric pressure attributes to anxiety.  Who would have thought that the barometric pressure could cause an anxiety attack?  I sure as hell didn’t.  I learned something new today.  Yay!  I love learning new things, just not by experiencing them.  😦
Although, this was considered a myth once upon a time because Winter usually triggers with upcoming holidays, colder weather, and sicknesses… It was later proven that it not only affects those who are inflicted with depression, it also strikes people with severe anxiety disorders as well.
I didn’t just go by what I read, I also went back to previous journals that I have kept over the last few years, and there it was in my own handwriting… “Today is so utterly grey and overcast, the damn weather report says we are supposed to get snow tonight.  I hate that white shit!  I feel crappy as it, and I hate this fucking cold.  My whole body feels so fucking tense, and I don’t know why.  Thank God I see Frances (psychiatrist) next week, she’s gonna have to do something about this overwhelming feeling, but I know if she gives me new meds, I’ve gotta wait a couple of weeks before the damn meds finally kick in.  I fucking hate this shit!  Oh fuck it, I may as well lay down and hope this passes on its own. – Later.” –  February 2016.
Funny, I hadn’t had a clue that the weather was contributing to feeling like crap.  Not just the season, but the actual weather was messing with me.   A winter wonderland
Oh, goody!  The weather channel is calling for snow starting late Friday evening into Saturday.  The timing couldn’t be better…  I see my psychiatrist next week.  “Here we go again, I might have to have my meds adjusted to deal with the barometric pressure.  I certainly don’t want to be reliant on valium, that’s for sure.
Okay, so, I want to hear from those who have experienced this feeling, and how you overcome it?  Please share with me.  Thank you, in advance.
In the meantime, I am going to close for now.  I do hope all of you are doing well and hope that you are having a good day.  🙂
Take Care & God Bless!
Beckie