Happy Monday and Welcome back to “Mindfulness Monday ☮️ Make a Change”
I hope this post finds all of you well today and that you had a pleasant weekend. I found it to be leisurely and calm. After last week, I was quite pleased with being a lump. LOL! I was a Pajama freak and loved every minute of it.
Okay, maybe I didn’t quite get this carried away, but you get the gist, right?
“If you dare nothing, then when the day is over, nothing is all you have gained.”
~ Neil Gaiman – Writer
So, this week, I wanted to touch base on…
“Preventative Depressive Measures”
And… Before you question the title, yes, the answer is yes, I made this up. I can do whatever I want on my blog, so there. LOL! 😉
In all seriousness though, I’d like to explore not only ideas that I have picked up along the way, but to reach out to you the readers on how you prevent or break the cycle of a depressive cycle?
Let’s face it, those of us that suffer from depression know that once we have fallen into the abyss, feel like the key was thrown away to our own personal prisons, it’s just plain, HELL!
Since my hospital stay, back in 2015, I have experienced four major depressive episodes and this is with being highly medicated. Ahh… Being heavily medicated might have had something to do with it. (But, I’ll get back to that).
If you have been following me since I began my blog, you probably have been around to have witnessed two of those episodes. The one in 2018, where I disappeared from my site entirely between September through to January 2019. Then again, this past June through late August, at least that one, I forced myself to keep blogging. Which by the way, was difficult, but necessary.
No matter how mentally tough we are, and no matter how many resources and supports we have, it’s just really hard to pull out of negative spirals once we’ve fallen into them:
- It’s really hard to pull out of a major depressive episode once we’ve started ruminating and getting in the habit of beating ourselves up.
- It’s really hard to break the cycle of a depressive episode once we’ve started imagining all the worst possible scenarios and outcomes.
- It’s really hard to be loving and compassionate toward all the people we care about and them caring about us. Once we’ve thought of all the ways someone annoys us and ourselves we’re consumed by a cloud of anger and resentment.
- It’s really hard to simply fall asleep at night once we’ve spent an hour and a half, if not more laying in bed worrying about not sleeping.
Yup! Been there, seen that, done that, and it sucks!
So, once we realized the obvious, now what do we do about it?
The one obvious thing and hence the name of my blog, being mindful. By now, I think we all know what that entails. Our brains are like a giant circuit board of over-stimulated thoughts and/or intrusive thoughts. That’s what happens, we’re mentally ill.
Listen, Lord knows I’m not a mental health professional, you can take my advice or leave it on the steps outside your door. But, these are a few things that have helped me jump the hurdles of a depressive cycle.
- I want to stop worrying and thinking negatively, and focus on the positives in my life? I need to be able to gain control of my emotions and start paying attention to “What is it that is making me feel this way in particular?”
- I want to stop picking on myself for every little mistake and guilt for feeling like this. I need to again, gain control and stay committed to my goals? This also deserves your full and undivided attention.
- I want to stop procrastinating and start getting real work done? I need to gain and maintain motivation. And, yes… This includes my attention.
- I want and need to stop ruminating on all the injustices everyone in my life spilled on me in the past. You know what I’m going to say next… “You have tho let that shit go!” The pent up anger, resentment, and/or envious, jealous feelings are not serving you any purpose. It is weighing you down.
I bet too, that you’re thinking… ‘Oh, come on, Beck! WTF? it’s not easy to just snap out of a depressive episode.’ – OR – ‘How do you know what my circumstances or situations are? It’s not just that easy to break out of this overwhelming feeling.’
… My answer to the following is, you’re absolutely correct, I don’t know what your circumstances or situations are, and I certainly don’t expect anyone, EVER to just snap out of a depressive cycle. It doesn’t work that way.
What I am saying and trying to relay here is this: Your Attention. Be aware of what is happening and try to be proactive in beating it. It’s freaking hard work, I know first hand how hard it is to fight that depressive episode tooth and nail.
As I’ve mentioned, at the beginning of June through to August, I was miserable. I thought hard and long that I couldn’t possibly keep doing my blog, cleaning, self-care, or anything. I really wanted to throw in the towel and say “Eff it”, I just want to stay in bed, and leave me the “Eff alone!” But, I didn’t give up. I paid attention to my mind, that time around.
I forced myself to push through. I also discussed my medications with my psychiatrist. There is such a thing of being over-medicated and that dragging your depression into a deeper abyss. TALK be open and honest with your doctor, tell them. Without communication and to be honest, documenting how you feel from day to day, there is no way of your doctor knowing what is serving you and what is not.
I happened to read this particular article and it makes a great deal of sense to me. I wish I came across it over a year ago. https://sophie-sticatedmom.com/2016/06/08/how-to-get-out-of-your-funk-and-stop-feeling-sorry-for-yourself/
Alrighty then, this concludes another week of “Mindfulness Monday ☮️ Make a Change.” If you have additional ideas or suggestions on how to break free from a depressive episode, please feel free to share them in the comments section of this post. You not only give me ideas, but you could help your fellow blogger that might be really having a tough go at it.
Thank you for reading!
Take Care & God Bless,
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