REBLOG: Melanie C., of “Sparks From a Combustible Mind” Week #16 or “Working on Us” Topic: Passive Suicide Ideation

Seriously? Passive Suicide IS Real.

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Beckie has provided us with an interesting topic today (and I admit to blowing my own horn a little because I suggested the prompt.  *toot*  )   

https://beckiesmentalmess.blog/2019/09/18/september-18-2019-working-on-us-this-weeks-mental-health-prompts-for-blogging-community-week-16-topic-passive-suicidal-ideation/

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Beckie writes:  ” In Honor of Suicide Prevention Month, more awareness needs to be addressed, as this is an epidemic amongst teens and adults alike all throughout our world.

The Prompt is going to be a bit different this time around.”

Rules:

  • Write your own post and create a ping-back to the original post here.

  • There are no right or wrong answers.  Write in any format you see fit.  (Answers, fiction, non-fiction, poetry, poem, short prose…anything, and/or narrative).

  • You can do one or all prompts.

  • You have from September 18th. through to September 24th. to submit your entries.

  • Please re-blog the original post in order to spread more awareness.

  • ( If you the blogger have a suggestion/question you want to ask in the future weeks, please submit them in the comment section of this post).

  • Let’s see if we can get some men involved in this weeks prompts, your viewpoint/feelings are validated here too!

  • Plus, as an added bonus, whoever responds to the following prompts will automatically be re-blogged to promote your blog site and spread more awareness!

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Prompt #1

Write a narrative about yourself and/or someone you know that is believed to think about “Passive Suicidal Ideation”

Prompt #2 

Can You Relate To The Following Song by Kyle Spratt “Suicide Notes” If so, please explain?

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My Responses:

Prompt #1

Write a narrative about yourself and/or someone you know that is believed to think/thought about “Passive Suicidal Ideation”

I’ve shared it before.   This is how my husband died.   Clinically, of course, his organs all shut down, in a slow fashion; starting with his heart, but eventually, they all just stopped.   He was morbidly (lethally) obese when he died, and he had severe COPD (chronic obstructive pulmonary disease).  That meant his lungs were compromised for a long time before he ever died.   His body retained so much fluid that he was hospitalized over six times before he died; each time needing the support of doctors to get the fluid off his lungs and heart so he could continue to live.    He always ALWAYS returned to the same problem though.   He would not assist in his own health care nor did he psychologically care if he lived or died.    He was a Vietnam Vet and as a result, had PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder).    All that plus some other factors rendered my husband a victim of passive suicide.   I doubt, in the end, he saw any point to being alive.   He often said he didn’t want to live to ‘get old’.   He achieved it.  He was 62 when he passed away.    

I had an acquaintance as a young woman (early 20s) who was a quadriplegic (paralyzed entirely).  She was ‘lucky’ because she could breathe on her own, but otherwise she had no voluntary movement.   She often expressed the wish to die.   Over and over again.   She could do nothing proactively to achieve that end, so she, too, was passively suicidal.   Twice that I am aware of, she almost achieved her goal to die…she THOUGHT herself into severe illnesses with horribly high fevers, which required hospitalization to treat.   Mind over matter.

It may sound like an oxymoron – the term “passive suicide”, because doesn’t one, have to DO something to kill themselves?   Well, I can honestly say no they don’t.   All they have to do is think hard enough that way.   

I categorize myself as someone with passive suicidal ideation.    This alarms and disturbs the head doctors, but I’ve assured them I won’t do anything active towards achieving my own end.    As much as I want it.    But yes I’ll think about it.   Every day.   And sometimes more than once a day too.   I’ve watched my physical self decline because of it.   I look decades older than I really am, a nasty little bonus I suppose, of having such a grim outlook mentally.    My physical self is dying.   Not near as fast as I’d like, but faster than is seemly given I’m not quite yet 60 years old.   

Passive suicide is real.   It kills.   I’ve seen the impact of it.  I struggle with it.  It bears talking about and if you know someone that seems to be depressed on a level where they are obsessing about death and dying, and it’s nowhere near the time they should be thinking of those things; get them some help.  Encourage them to go talk to a professional about their state of mind.    You might just save their life.


Prompt #2 

Can You Relate To The Following Song by Kyle Spratt “Suicide Notes” If so, please explain?

I don’t relate.  I really dislike intensely the “musical’ style of rap.   But I listened anyway.   The lyrics were certainly eye-opening, particularly at the end.   The rapper seemed to do something that many who are suicidal cannot  – he found his way back out of the darkness again.   That ‘song’ could be seen as a huge trigger in the right circumstances.   I’m glad they post a warning on it, but that might just entice a young person to listen to it.   If they do, and they are suicidal, I hope they listen to the WHOLE thing.   Maybe they’ll get the real message, which to me is, “You can heal yourself with the proper help and mindset.  You can.   You just have to want to first.”

 

 

BC 2019

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