As you can see, I sort of changed today’s title from Self-Help to Not Selfish. Well, there’s a legitimate reason for that.
Most of you that follow me know that I’ve been fighting and pushing myself through a depressive cycle for some time now. The thing is, is that I think I may have overdone it a little.
It may not appear this way when I’ve been writing and/or commenting over the last couple of days, but I am not feeling right at all over the last couple of days. Especially, today.
I was overly tired yesterday so I decided to take a nap. Another nap that lasted the span over 4 hours. When I tuned I for the evening last night, I was still overly tired, but couldn’t fall asleep. I think I fell asleep, maybe around 5-ish-am this morning.
When I finally got sleep, the entire time I slept was filled with horrid nightmares. Nightmares of things that involved nothing but my past. Most of these nightmares were of things I haven’t thought about in a very long time. To say the least, I was and still am quite shaken over them.
I’m not sure what and/or if something triggered the nightmares one right after the other, but I am emotionally, physically, and mentally not equipped to handle today at all.
In other words, I’m taking a mental health day off. I may stop in from time to time to read, but that’s pretty much it. My focus is really not tuned in to anything. Even as I’m writing this, I’m sincerely shaking and feel horrible.
I hope that all of you have a wonderful day.
Take Care & God Bless,