~๐ŸŒผ~ Working on Me ~๐ŸŒผ~ (Not Selfish)

 

1/23/17

Hello, All!

As you can see, I sort of changed today’s title from Self-Help to Not Selfish.ย  Well, there’s a legitimate reason for that.

Most of you that follow me know that I’ve been fighting and pushing myself through a depressive cycle for some time now.ย  The thing is, is that I think I may have overdone it a little.ย ย 

Yourself must be your highest priority.

It may not appear this way when I’ve been writing and/or commenting over the last couple of days, but I am not feeling right at all over the last couple of days.ย  Especially, today.

I was overly tired yesterday so I decided to take a nap.ย  Another nap that lasted the span over 4 hours.ย  When I tuned I for the evening last night, I was still overly tired, but couldn’t fall asleep.ย  I think I fell asleep, maybe around 5-ish-am this morning.ย ย 

When I finally got sleep, the entire time I slept was filled with horrid nightmares.ย  Nightmares of things that involved nothing but my past.ย  Most of these nightmares were of things I haven’t thought about in aย very long time.ย  To say the least, I was and still am quite shaken over them.

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I’m not sure what and/or if something triggered the nightmares one right after the other, but I am emotionally, physically, and mentally not equipped to handle today at all.ย ย 

In other words, I’m taking a mental health day off.ย  I may stop in from time to time to read, but that’s pretty much it.ย  My focus is really not tuned in to anything.ย  Even as I’m writing this, I’m sincerely shaking and feel horrible.

I hope that all of you have a wonderful day.

Take Care & God Bless,

Beckieย 

25 comments

  1. I can relate. I have had weeks like this. I had to increase my medication to get through it. Days/weeks like this just suck. Take care of you. That really is the most important thing at present, you are right.

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    • I contacted my pysche doc this morning. She told me to increase my dosage of Clonazepam. I slept the entire day. I just got up to grab something to eat, and back to be I go. LOL! Gotta love it, sleeping more than the cat.
      I’m hoping to return tomorrow. I’ll see.
      Thank you for your eunderstanding and kindness. ๐Ÿ’—

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