No worries, I’m not going to post any camels wishing you a Happy Hump Day. LOL! However, I am going to wish you well on this fine Wednesday!
Today, I wanted to cover the topic of Accepting Imperfections.
This is something I seriously need help with. Don’t get me wrong, my friends. I don’t want to ever be perfect in any way shape or form, too boring for my taste, thank you very much!
What I’m speaking about (or, writing in this case) is that I have so many imperfections that I deal with daily and at times, it can be overwhelming and sometimes crippling.
First off, I’m overweight. I know what you’re thinking, ‘So diet. Exercise. Watch what you eat and when you eat.’ Am I right? I know you’re right. I wish to hell I had the will-power to work at this. And, I do plan on working on it soon. I’ve actually planned on changing my overall view of losing weight, and have noted on my calendar, that when the middle of April is upon us I will be attempting to carry through with a new regiment of eating healthy, exercising, as well as keeping a log on how I’m feeling each day.
Some of you are probably scratching your heads wondering ‘why the middle of April?’ And, yes, I have an answer for this. I know myself pretty well, and in the past, when I started something at the beginning of the month, I’m setting myself up for failure. So, April 14th is the day I begin to set my goal for living a healthier lifestyle.
If you the reader have any suggestions to get me boosted into living a healthier existence, it would be greatly appreciated. Please leave your ideas and/or suggestions in the comment section of this post.
Here is my second issue, and probably my most disgusting problem.
For as long as I can remember, I have always bitten my nails. I don’t mean just a little nibble here and there, but an all-out feasting fest! ‘Eww, Gross!’ I know, I know.
For almost 25 years I even wore press on nails to hide this defect of mine. But, as soon as I had the chance, I’d rip them off and start gnawing on them once again.
I truly believed it was due to my being anxious for most of my life. Yet, the more it has bugged me the more I wanted to research why I can’t seem to get a grip on this.
Believe it or not, I learned that nail-biting and Trichotillomania are both on the OCD spectrum. Nail-biting is also known as onychophagy or onychophagia. Just another fancy and the technical word for a compulsive habit. Hair pulling falls under the same category too. It’s more common for people with trichotillomania to bite their nails if they have multiple impulse disorders.
I never had a problem with pulling my hair, thank goodness. However, this nail-biting is beyond horrible, and it seems that I bite them more so in the evening hours opposed to the daytime. I would have thought if I was in a relaxed state, I would chew less. NOPE! The hardest part of this is that I am so embarrassed by it because of the way my hands look. I’d take a picture to show you, but I don’t want to scare anyone. (No joke).
Again, I had absolutely no idea that my nail-biting fell under the spectrum of my already OCD psyche.
Trichotillomania is an impulse control disorder and anxiety doesn’t cause it, it triggers it. CBT therapy is the most commonly used approach to treating trichotillomania because it involves habit reversal techniques.
I have never discussed this with my own therapist, but I’m sure she has noticed the nailless fingertips in our sessions together. Thank goodness, I have my appointment with her next Tuesday, March 19th. It’s been way over a month since our last meeting, and I am in need of seeing her in more ways than one.
Question… Do you or someone you know have the same thing happening with nail-biting and trichotillomania? If so, have you or them gone through a CBT session in order to reverse this impulse control disorder?
I’d really appreciate the feedback as I know these are two physical and mental issues I’ve been facing for an awfully long time.
I know self-acceptance is key to self-growth and bettering myself, this is basically why I am going to be working on both issues. In future posts of “Working on Me” – Self-Help, I will keep you updated on my progress.
I thank all of you for reading and thank you in advance for your comments.
Take Care& God Bless!
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Research Credit: Google, WebMD.