Hello, to All! Happy Hump Day!
Today, I wanted to touch on Strength. And, no, I’m not speaking about my upper body strength. I mean the type of strength to overcome, and/or face the day to day obstacles.
We don’t always have to be strong to be strong. My strength began when being at my most vulnerable. It wasn’t until I literally fell apart, I had to pick up the pieces and regroup. It might sound easy, but the truth is, it was the hardest thing I ever had to do.
There have been on several occasions where I cannot push myself harder, fight with self-doubt, cannot focus on anything but fear, and cannot be strong. There are some days that I can’t even get out of my pajamas, I’m tired, irritable, or pissed off.
I’m sure a great number of you can relate to this feeling, am I right?
Believe it or not, this feeling is okay. However, we cannot succumb to these feelings on a full-time basis. As the ole’ saying goes, “Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start once again.” I personally can’t become complacent with the attitude of “Poor me.” – Even though it can be a bitch to fight it sometimes. It’s okay to fall apart when we need to, but it’s not okay to stay there.
When I was growing up, my mother repeated this mantra or self-talk to herself… “I’m the tower of power.” This coming from a woman who had gone through hell during her childhood, and most of her adult life. I admire my mother for always being strong. Don’t get me wrong, she certainly had her moments of falling apart, several times in fact. However, she pushed herself so hard to overcome everything she endured.
I have to admit, I repeat her mantra to myself when I am at my lowest point. My lowest point was when I was suicidal over 3&1/2 years ago. It took a great deal of strength to push myself to go to the hospital and seek help. I faced homelessness, I fought so damn hard on a daily basis to keep my mind focussed on getting better, think positively, and fight to get out of the system.
You see, our strength will continue if we allow ourselves the courage to feel scared, weak, and vulnerable when we need to experience challenges. We need to feel our emotions because this is the only way we then realize we have the strength to conquer them.
I’m not about to preach to any one of you… Again, this is my Self-Awareness talking. When I remember back to the times in which I was my most fearful, sorrowful, and downright scared to face another day… I also see that woman pulling through, fighting the fire, coming out of the ashes. Each time I have blown the doors off the hinges I realize, Damn, I did have the strength in me the whole time. It was dormant for a spell, but I woke up.
People with mental illness have to fight harder with each passing day to find the strength to just get out of bed in the morning. If you just did that for the day, guess what? You had the courage and strength in you.
Knowing that I am prone to falling into depression all over again, I force myself with everything I’ve got to fight it. Some days better than others, but I don’t give up on myself. And neither should you.
Okay, my friends, this wraps up today’s “Working on Me” ~ Self-Help. Until next week, practice being aware of your feelings. Make an attempt to have the courage and battle through a difficult situation. Then applaud yourself for having the strength to overcome it. You’ve got this!
Hope that you have a wonderful day!
Take Care & God Bless,
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