~🌼~ Working on Me ~🌼~ (Self-Help)

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Hello, Everyone!  Happy Hump Day!  I hope this post finds all of you well today. 

I’m doing pretty good considering WordPress did something wrong to my site view page.  None of the pictures I selected appear on the screen, which makes my site look positively boring as all sin. I was on with the tech department this morning for close to an hour, and still, nothing is resolved as of yet.  But, I have remained calm, which is something I’m not normally.  LOL!  

Last week, as many of you know…  I was still in slump mode, and couldn’t get motivated enough to do the simplest task, such as self-care, and even cleaning.  This was affecting my OCD off the charts, but for some odd reason, my little list of things to do wasn’t quite helping my motivation.  However, I am proud to say…  Everything finally did get done over this past weekend.  Plus, I have maintained keeping a list of things to do each day with just a few tasks each time in order to maintain it without feeling overwhelmed by it.  

I have better news though… If you have been following, back in March my Medicaid was terminated without notice leaving me without health insurance.  Since that time, I haven’t been able to see my therapist nor my psychiatrist for my medications.  I have searched high and low for low-cost insurance and even decided that if I didn’t get health insurance by the end of July, I would be selling my car and using the monies from that insurance to pay for health insurance.  

Well…

Yesterday, I got a call from my therapist checking to see why I hadn’t come back.  She said that she received an e-mail stating that I never renewed my Medicaid enrollment, (Which was a false, and a lie) Not only did I not receive a notice, but I had requested this 3 times, and never received it.  Plus, I was verbally told that I could no longer be on Medicaid because of my SSDI exceeded the amount in which to have Medicaid in the first place.  After a wonderful talk with my therapist, she is going to notify the mental health’s administrative department and billing department in order for me to still come in on a sliding scale based on what I earn, and what my expenses are.  Plus, try to help me and/or guide me to find insurance that I can afford.  I cannot even begin to express how thrilled I was to hear of this and to talk to my therapist in the first place.  I missed her so much over the course of all these months.  So, hopefully, before the end of the day, I will hear from my mental health center and get the ball rolling again.

This leads me to my next subject of Patience.  I promise I’ll make this short.

Patience:

Lord knows I’ve been pretty damn patient when it came to this dilemma of not having health insurance, and I have to have patience with WordPress resolving the problem with my site just recently.  But, this is something I’ve been reading over and over again in order to keep my cool, (which hasn’t been easy over the last few months).  As some of you know, I’ve been reading a book called “The Language of Letting Go” by Melody Beattie, which was given to me by my therapist, God Bless her soul.

‘Sometimes we get what we want right away.  At other times, we wonder if our desires will ever be fulfilled.  We will be fulfilled in the best way possible and as quickly as possible.  But some things take time.’

 ‘Be patient.  Relax and trust.  Let go.  Then, let go some more.  Good things are planned for us.  We will receive them at the first available moment.  We will have all our heart longs for.  Relax and trust.’

Although I tried like mad to resolve the issue with my health insurance, I was hitting a brick wall constantly.  The cost was maddening, and my anxiety was through the roof.  There was a point where I just had to stop and step away from the problem at hand, and do just what Melody Beattie suggested.  “Relax and trust.”  Don’t get me wrong, I prayed so hard for this issue to be resolved, or at least obtain the guidance for it to be resolved.

I’m not normally a patient person by nature but after all that I’ve been through (homelessness, mental health issues, physical problems, fighting alcoholism and the recovery that comes with it), I’d say patience is something I’ve worked on, and still work on to this day.  It’s hard work, but it’s the only way that I know of in order to remain as calm as I could get.

Do you have a problem with patience?  If so, what do you do to get through the waiting process?

I hope that you all have a wonderful day.  Hey, we are at least half-way through the week.  That’s a plus in my book!  LOL!  🙂

Take Care & God Bless,

Beckie

 

13 comments

  1. Because of all I have endured, my patience worked on itself. I used to have a short fuse and now I am patient with myself. This is something that I learned and it feels like the answer to surviving life. Be patient and kind are the two greatest lessons I’ve learned.

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  2. My fibromyalgia declining into full disability. The fight for SSDI and the fight with the work comp insurance company taught me patience. It was a horrible, hard lesson but I’m grateful. I need that patience to be a coparent to my autistic grandson.

    I get Medicare with my SSDI. They take about $130.00/month from my check to cover the cost. Have you tried getting Medicare? I’m guessing Medicaid is state, Medicare is federal.

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