Good Afternoon Folks! How is everyone doing this fine day? I certainly hope everyone is doing better than me, that’s for sure. LOL!
I haven’t written much in the last few days based on how I’ve been feeling lately. The reason for this is because I’ve been going through episodes of anxiety attacks, and bout’s of severe insomnia the last few weeks, not really day’s when I think about it. This, of course, has left me feeling exhausted and drained, not to mention, very irritable.
My doctor feel believes that I am suffering from a bout’ with my bipolar 2 at the current moment, which is setting me in the direction of affecting all the disorders I have. Some of you already know that since my diagnosis back in September 2015, I’ve had my highs and sunk down into lows. This is definitely a low for me right now. Plus, it feels like my medication is fighting against me these days. Argh! 😦
I wanted to touch base on the differences between bipolar 1 vs. 2 today, and throughout this week. I say a week because it will depend on the state of mind I’m in. I am truly brain fried today, so I know this will be a short entry. I hope all of you understand.
Bipolar disorder is mental health condition by which are better know by as episodes of extreme mood disturbances. You may have already known this, but it is broken out into two types of bipolar disorders. Bipolar 1, and Bipolar 2.
As per the Diagnostic & Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, published by the American Psychiatric Association, if you have bipolar 1 disorder, you could very well experience episodes of mania and depression.
If you have bipolar 2 disorder, you have extreme episodes of depression, as well as a less severe form of mania called hypomania.
A mental illness marked by periods of great excitement, euphoria, delusions, and overactivity. An excessive enthusiasm or desire; obsession.
A milder form of mania, periods of elation and hyperactivity. Decreased need for sleep and racing thoughts.
Hypomania of bipolar 2 disorder, a person has a sustained mood that is heightened, grand, superior, or irritable. The mood has been noticeably different when not depressed. It’s also important to know that hypomania my interfere to a certain degree with daily functioning, but not severely.
Now, because I have depression, OCD, PTSD, severe insomnia, anxiety/panic disorders, I do have exhaustion vs. hyperactivity. Sure, I still somewhat function by still tending to everyday activities, but I face it in a way where I feel as if I’m (half) there. Meaning, I almost feel as if I’m just coasting through the motions.
I certainly have difficulty in focusing and I easily get distracted. Since I started writing this piece, I have gotten up to water the plants, dust, stared aimlessly at items to try to talk myself down from the anxiety that seems to have taken over me. I definitely have a surge of unexplainable energy, which I can’t understand why, because of the lack of sleep I am receiving each night. I can only sleep for maybe 2-3 hours lately. I do feel a sense of restlessness and electricity pulsing throughout my left side of my body. Tension, that is hard to even come close to describing, but I have no reason to feel this way. At least I don’t think I have a reason.
Hopefully, if I’m up to it, I will continue on this subject matter tomorrow. For now, I leave you with this… Do you experience this type of feeling? If so, what do you do to calm yourself down, and/or how do you handle these episodes yourself?
I hope that all of you have an enjoyable afternoon and pleasant evening.
Take Care & God Bless,