Hello, my dear friends… How are you today? I don’t know why, but I always enjoy asking the following question; How is the weather in your neck of the woods? I have a point to this question I have asked. I really I do. 🙂
As some of you know, I had experienced a pretty rotten anxiety attack last night. I think I was pretty much fighting it from the time I had gotten out of bed yesterday. The strange thing was, was that I wasn’t thinking or ruminating over anything at all, other than trying to figure out the “Why?” am I feeling this way.
Yesterday’s weather was strange here in New Jersey. For early December, it had reached 60 degrees and it was so humid. The meteorologist said there would be rain later in the day. Seems pretty uneventful, right? Well, what followed soon after it began to rain is when the anxiety took a strong-hold on me. The tension in my neck and shoulders added to extreme pain in my chest, I felt this crippling sensation. The more I was trying to figure out what had triggered this event, the more anxious I was becoming. What the hell was triggering this?
It is very rare for me to break down and take a valium, but I simply broke. This was after I tried mindfulness and breathing techniques to no avail, but I was overtaken by the grip it had on me. Once I had taken that little pill, 20 minutes later I was off the ledge. I read other peoples blogs to keep me focussed and in the present moment which helped a great deal… So, many thanks to all of you for posting some fine writing.
Afterwards, I laid down to unwind by watching Netflix and wondered to myself, ‘Did the weather play a role in my anxiety attack?’ Seriously? I knew that seasonal changes could affect depression, right?
This morning, after I had awakened I still felt sore from tensing up last night, but I really wanted to answer my own question of; ‘Did the rain affect my anxiety last night? ‘ – “Okay Google, answer this one for me, please?”
Seasonal changes do affect depression and believe it or not, the barometric pressure attributes to anxiety. Who would have thought that the barometric pressure could cause an anxiety attack? I sure as hell didn’t. I learned something new today. Yay! I love learning new things, just not by experiencing them. 😦
Although, this was considered a myth once upon a time because Winter usually triggers with upcoming holidays, colder weather, and sicknesses… It was later proven that it not only affects those who are inflicted with depression, it also strikes people with severe anxiety disorders as well.
I didn’t just go by what I read, I also went back to previous journals that I have kept over the last few years, and there it was in my own handwriting… “Today is so utterly grey and overcast, the damn weather report says we are supposed to get snow tonight. I hate that white shit! I feel crappy as it, and I hate this fucking cold. My whole body feels so fucking tense, and I don’t know why. Thank God I see Frances (psychiatrist) next week, she’s gonna have to do something about this overwhelming feeling, but I know if she gives me new meds, I’ve gotta wait a couple of weeks before the damn meds finally kick in. I fucking hate this shit! Oh fuck it, I may as well lay down and hope this passes on its own. – Later.” – February 2016.
Funny, I hadn’t had a clue that the weather was contributing to feeling like crap. Not just the season, but the actual weather was messing with me.
Oh, goody! The weather channel is calling for snow starting late Friday evening into Saturday. The timing couldn’t be better… I see my psychiatrist next week. “Here we go again, I might have to have my meds adjusted to deal with the barometric pressure. I certainly don’t want to be reliant on valium, that’s for sure.
Okay, so, I want to hear from those who have experienced this feeling, and how you overcome it? Please share with me. Thank you, in advance.
In the meantime, I am going to close for now. I do hope all of you are doing well and hope that you are having a good day. 🙂
Take Care & God Bless!